wow.

Currently listening to : Adem - "Everything You Need"


All you need in this life--

it's not just getting by; it's not thorough analysis.

This week has been amazing. I'm overwhelmed with awe at the growth that has come of it. I was busy-being and busying and rustling and racketing insanely and then I had the revelation. The thing is, there are endless adaptations to our singular lives that allow it all to just work in so marvelous a way it's incomprehensible! I'm so amazed. It's this cycle-- this cycle of nonsensical contempt and eventual total recovery that steals your breath.

I mean, mon Dieu, just look at it: the simplicity!
All the complexity assembles into one beautifully simple line. A complex simple line. The wind grazed the water, and I was taken aback. It's so hard to achieve, but then there's that other thing--
yes, that other thing, you know the one-- the one-- the one where you understand. All of it-- the whole thing-- swirls together in an overly orderly manner and then you just grasp it and consequently go out with joy.




My biggest obstacle is learning that not everything must be understood-- that there is so much release in adoring the life that is presently happening as we prepare for one that just promises to kick an even more major one.

Currently listening to : Chris Thile - "Song for a Young Queen"


I love the North Carolina hills.


I think of that winter's Biltmore singing. I read an intriguing book and looked out on a breathtaking sight after having sung merrily and having realized my ultimate nightmare of falling during a performance. Amazing people introduced me to amazing music. I forgot my wonderful pillow at the hotel, too.







There are hills in front of my window, but those North Carolina hills... they just have this indispensable mystique about them. Come to Carolina, and let's dance. hehehe.

sun sets and suddenly you're in love with e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g

Currently listening to: Badly Drawn Boy - "Once Around the Block"

I'm unfair.

Today I was walking back from commons. I passed under a nice tree, and it reckoned I ought to be doubly showered for the day. My first reaction was, "ARRG! DOOM!" but then I laughed.

I laughed a whole darn lot.

Perhaps it's a sort of dumbness that's struck me. I struggle to convey anything but nuisance these days... Oh, dear! What the scoowampling frying fishsticks, I say!?

Life is so... life!
Overwhelmingly beautiful, infinitely possible-- there is so much within...!


I have to figure out a way to keep the internal dance going more often than just when I run to class. Hm.

Currently listening to: Weezer - "Only in Dreams"


And there it ended.

After a mighty race to the busyness, it was time. As Erika lunged against that solacing shoulder, she felt a certain suspension. Kind of like in the movies, you know; everything around you isn't like you, immobile.

It had taken a few adjustments, that's for sure. It had taken a deeper understanding of separation. It had taken a resolution to permanently alter the inner being. It had taken a severe disposal of ocular liquid. Yeah, she'd cried like a baby.

As she vanished in the crowd, Erika knew.
From now on, nothing would ever be the same again.


And it wasn't.